I want to be a better mom. Each day I go to bed feeling like I gave it my best in regards to work and my career but I am sad and a little embarassed to say that I don’t always feel like I gave it my best as a mother.
I am a very goal oriented person. If I set a goal I strive for it. The hardest part is setting the goal in the first place. So the other night I committed myself to a new goal: to become a better mother.
Now you may be wondering what kind of mother I am now? I will tell you…I am a good mother in the fact that I make sure my kids eat healthy, get plenty of sleep, are doing well in school and feel like they can come to me about anything. I love them more than life itself and treat them with love, compassion and respect. And you better believe I am really good at teaching them how to organize. Do I beat my kids? No. Do I call them names? No. Am I doing anything really wrong? No.
I will admit I don’t like playing. My mother once admitted to me that she disliked playing too and in fact never played with us. I turned out all right so I was happy that my mother was so open, it helped lessen my own guilt. Don’t get me wrong, I play cards and board games, the Wii or basketball with my kids but in general I really avoid playing. My husband on the other hand is an amazingly playful parent. He LOVES to play (thank God).
So yes, I would say in general I am a good mom. My husband would say I am a great mom. Hopefully my kids would too. But personally I know I can be a BETTER mom. My kids are now 7 & 10. It seems like a week ago they were 2 & 5 (one of my favorite times). I blinked and now that time is gone. Now that they are 7 & 10 life is definitely easier. They brush their own teeth, they can get their own snacks, they get up for school, dress themselves and make their own breakfast and on the weekends they never wake me up if they get up first …pretty amazing huh? On one hand this new “easier” life is awesome. I am finally getting a little bit of a break! But on the other hand, I think their new “self-sufficient-ness” is making me a little lazier. And since I don’t have to DO everything for them I feel like I spend less time with them. This scares me….what will happen when they are 16 & 19? I REALLY won’t have much time with them.
Quite frankly I am afraid to blink again…for fear that when I do 7 & 10 will be a distant memory. This is my real reason for this post. I am committing to being a better mom. Committing to living in the moment more and to enjoy each moment I spend with them. I have made the decision to find something small or big I can do each day to ensure that when I look back on these days I will know in my heart that I was not just a good mom but the very BEST mom I could be.
Do you feel like you are the BEST mom you can be? If so, what do you do each day to prove this? If not, how do you think you can improve? I would love to hear your thoughts!